I've lost so much yet gained my life.

Wow, God is truly amazing.
I never thought I would be one of those people who would take control of their life and leave God out of the mix. But you know what? I did.

I had been planning my life without His input.
My plans included : my current boyfriend at the time, and to move to Everette.
Well, tonight those plans did a 180 on me, and I'm left somewhat numb.

God has shown me recently that I need to go into law.
Crazy as it sounds, He practically shoved it in my face through a few people.
But never...EVER did I think that choosing to pursue that would take the ONE THING I thought I had left from the life that I WANTED.

First, I lose my amazing guy.
Now, I lose my amazing school.


All to find my purpose in life, and man was this the strangest journey I've ever felt.
This scares me so badly.
I've just lost the two greatest things in my life.

I know the direction I'm supposed to head, but now everything is disbanded and there is no support for me to get anywhere. It's all wrong.

Tomorrow I have a phone call with the Dean at Trinity, if that doesn't work for me then I will not be moving this fall. Then what? I don't know.