I am EXCITED

I realized today.
For you I changed:

My Dreams.
My clothing style.
My music.
My lingo.
My friends.
My hang out places.
My art.
My everything.

I am feeling pleased:
Because without you
I HAVE IT ALL BACK.

I got more than five hours
last night, and ate more than
one meal yesterday-
finally.

Grieving over you isn't
worth the amount of time
I've grieved over my grandpa.

Especially since:
You can't tell your mom "NO".
You are being confused by Satan.
You knowingly break the law on-
pirated CD's, and the lights in your car.

Last night, I had a dream.
Hopefully the last of you I'll
EVER HAVE!

It was our normal routine:
hang out
go to dinner,
but this menu was different.

This menu was life,
and I reached for something
and you physically pulled me back.

FROM ANYTHING I WANTED ON THE MENU.

But: this time I didn't listen.
We ended, as we have and I could
NEVER FEEL HAPPIER.
I actually woke up with a smile on my face.

You're right- I DO DESERVE BETTER.
YOU DID HURT ME AGAIN.

So, while our flame has possibly burned
out FOREVER I realize there are two
things that could happen.

One: I will be perfectly okay from this
very day, and never need you again.

or

Two: You could realize Satan is confusing you.
Then YOU COULD APOLOGIZE,

and

MAYBE I'll be there when you see you want me.

but

IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE I WILL BE.