My Current Relationship

So, these past three days have been absolutely horrible to me.

Kevin and I have gotten into an issue which is our first, and possibly our last.
We are parting ways this fall, hopefully not relationship wise- but in distance.
I am moving to Everette in August for college, something I feel really called to do.

He hasn't asked that I stay, and not that I would- but I feel our plans didn't have to be
completely destroyed. We knew there would be a problem when the time came,
but these past few months we'd worked out a wonderful plan. He was going to go with me.
In return, hopefully we'd soon start a life together. He's always said he'd love me no matter
what. But that feeling I fear has depleted from his heart. We have had an amazing Two years
and three months together. I fear I'll lose him.

Our world together came crashing down Monday night. Apparently his thoughts have changed his mind. I don't even know where we are to go.
He isn't sure about the future anymore, and I thought we were doing great.
:-(.

I love him, but I realize that I can't love for the both of us.
To anyone who reads this, please just pray for us.
Yes, we are high school sweet hearts, but I just wish he'd remember what he asked God
before we were together.

I fear my pleas will only push him farther away, and I know I cannot help in his sorting process.
But in the meantime my heart aches for the man I love. One who has always been there for me.

Instead, I turn to constant prayer. Something I haven't done in a long time. He has to decide
for himself whether he wants me, and if he is willing to work on lasting.
I can't do that for him no matter how much I want to.

But no matter what, my heart will always be attached to our memories. I will always wish him the best.

-KKayL